"Okay lang"

Subukan ko kayang kalimutan kita saglit. Yung hindi muna kita masaydong ilagay sa sistema ng isip ko at alalahanin ka sa bawat oras na dumadaan sa akin. Kasi parang wala lang din naman sa’yo ang mga bagay na yun. Natatakot na naman kasi ako sa nangyayari, na baka isang araw magising ako na pinaniniwala ko na naman ang sarili ko sa isang bagay na hindi naman pala. At sa pangalawang pagkakataon masasaktan na naman ako ng lubusan. Pakiramdam ko kasi ako lang ang nagpapahalaga sa ating dalwa. Ang dalas mo ng nagiging “insensitive” sa feelings ko or baka sensitive lang talaga ako. Oo nga you’re so sweet to me pero may pagkakataon talaga na hindi mo alam ang simpleng bagay na gusto ko. May pagkakataon na napapasama mo ang loob ko. Iniisip ko nga baka napapraning lang ako sa kaiisip or baka kinukumpara kita sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko para sa’yo.

Hayy, ewan, hindi ko alam at hindi ko na rin alam ang gagawin ko sa tuwing nagkakakaganito ako, tayo. Parang hindi ako ganun kaimportante sa'yo. Parang laging "okay" lang kasi hindi naman ako nagagalit, konting lambing "okay" na naman ang lahat. Pero paano kung mapagod na ako, sa ganung situation na pinalalagpas mo ang mga bagay-bagay na akala mo "okay" lang talaga? Papaano kung biglang maisip ko na hindi na pala talaga ako masaya? Na lagi na lang sumasama ang loob ko. Or baka talagang hindi kita napapasaya kaya tayo nagkakaganito. (Ang sakit naman nun)

Ngayon pa lang na naiisip ko na baka hindi din talaga tayo sa isa't isa, nasasaktan na ako ng husto. Dahil ayaw ko ng i-let go yung mga bagay na nakasanayan ko na, na ikaw ang kasama ko. Wag naman sana tayong umabot sa ganon. Dahil baka talagang hindi ko na kayanin sa pangalawang pagkakataon na 'to.

"Leave Me Alone!"

LEAVE ME ALONE!" "KALIMUTAN MO NA AKO!" Yan ang ilang beses ko nang sinasabi sa taong minahal ko ng husto nuon, at isa na lamang siyang nakaraan ng buhay ko ngayon na binaon ko na ng tuluyan sa limot. Kasama ng mga masasakit n kahapon.

"I'm okay now, so please just leave me alone?!"

Ganon talaga siguro kapag wala na ang isang bagay sa isang tao, 'tsaka lang nila maiisip ang kahalagahan nito sa buhay nila. And true enough, 'yan ang nangyayari sa ex ko ngayon. At kahit kelan, ano man ang gawin niya, gaano man siyang magsisi huli na ang lahat para maibalik yung mga sinayang niya. Never nang babalik ang mga bagay na hindi niya pinahalagahan nung panahon na nasa harap pa niya ito. At mas masakit para sa kanyan na malaman, na ang taong pinipilit niyang ibalik sa buhay niya ay may masayang buhay na ngayon sa piling ng taong mahal niya at minamahal din siya ng totoo at buong buo, at higit pa sa pagmamahal na naibigay nuon.

Kaya magpasalamat tayo at pahalagahan ang mga bagay na meron tayo ngayon, lalong lalo na ang mga taong nagmamahal sa atin unconditionally at nagbibigay ng atensyon sa atin. Dahil kapag nahuli na ang lahat, hinding hindi na natin maiibalik yun...

"~♥ I Can't Stop Loving You ♥~"

~♥~

I want to start by saying that I miss you, and you have no idea how much I love you.I know you don't need another reminder because I tell you a many times a day how much I love you, but I do and that is my only way to show you. I love the many ways you show me how much you love me, and I know my simple words can never compare. From day one, I knew there was something in you that no other guy had. You are the most AMAZING guy I have ever known. Thinking back to the strange way we met, how we grow so close in just a few short days, and how you were the first one to show me the meaning of true love, it makes me smile and fall all over for you again.

Baby, you make my heart beat faster each time I see you, and you give me butterflies when you kiss me. You are the one I want to hold for the rest of my life. In your arms is where I belong.You melt me every time you tell me about the future that you want to spend with me and how we could show the world the real meaning of being in love with the right person.I wish the people around me saw you and accepted us being together, because I don't think I could live a day knowing that you are not in my life. I know that anyone that tried to replace you would only be compared to you in my mind, and I know they could never live up to you in my eyes. Every time I look into your eyes I know that is where I want to live and die, and every time you hold me tight I don't want you to let go because that is the only place I feel safest. I know when we first got together everyone wanted us apart. They told us that our relationship would never last, and they still tell us that. But we have proven them wrong and I want you to stay in my life forever, as you will in my heart. I know forever is a very long time but it won’t be enough time for me to spend with you, showing you every day how much I love and care about you. I hate being far from you.

** I pray that you will carry my love for you in your heart while you are gone, and I look forward to the day when we can be together again

~♥~

"I want to be your whole thing ♥♥♥"

"Valuing a relationship is not merely done by seeing each other everyday. What counts is how much in our busy lives we remember each other."

Everything you do for me reassures me that I am appreciated. I want you to know that you mean so much to me. From the first day we met, you were determined to get to know me. At first, I was doubtful about you because of your purpose, but you quickly grew on me. I want you to know that every moment we’ve spent together since that first day holds a special place in my heart. I was afraid at first that if I let you in I’d regret it, but I haven’t regretted a single moment. I trust you, and I know you’ll be there for me no matter what. I trust that you’ll be faithful to me and that you won’t hurt my heart. You tell me how you want only the best for me. You tell me how beautiful I am. You tell me how you love every curve of my body. You just make me feel extra special; make me feel a sense of warmth inside. I want you to know that I love you for this! I love you for being so caring and genuine. I love you for everything you’ve done for me. I love you for the happiness and joy you bring to my life. I love you for you! We don’t even need to talk to communicate with each other. By just being together, holding hands, or cuddling, we can sense each other’s thoughts and inner feelings. I want you to know that I want the best for you as well. I want you to succeed and I want all your dreams and fantasies to come true. I know that in me you see a young woman full of kindness, understanding, and compassion. A young woman with an open-heart. A young woman who puts a smile on your face everyday. I will be that woman who’s there for you just as you’re there for me, the one who encourages you through life’s ups and downs. But ultimately, I want to be the woman who is your everything. Not an hour goes by that I don’t think about you. You have brought so much joy to my life and you give me so much to look forward to when I wake up every morning. I want you to know that I sincerely appreciate you and I can never tell you enough that “I LOVE YOU!”

"Answered Prayer"

Wow, it's Sunday! And it's time to give thanks and glorify the name of our lord Jesus Christ!!!

Masaya at excited ako sa araw na 'to, dahil ito ang unang-unang pagkakataon sa buhay ko na magsisimba ako kasama ang pinaka-importanteng guy sa buhay ko (of coarse, besides my Dad and my Brother), kasama ng family ko.

Me and my whole family are "Born Again Christian" and my "baby k0h" is a catholic, kaya sobrang natuwa ako sa "baby k0h" kasi he showed me na he really wants to be part of my family and how sincere he was. Maganda na rin yunng ganon ginagawa niya, para mas nakikilala siya ng family ko and nakikilala niya rin ang family ko. This is answered prayer for me.

Sobrang bago sa akin ang mga ganitong bagay. Actually sya lang at kauna-unahang guy na pinakilala ko sa family ko as my boyfriend. And masaya naman ako na naipakilala ko na siya sa parents ko, though hindi pa ganun ka-okay talaga ang lahat, pero it's kinda relieved na rin for both of us. At least we don't need to meet somewhere else para lang magkasama kami and hindi na rin kami kailangang maglihim pa sa parents ko.

Ganitong freedom ang matagal ko ng hinihingi, ang magmahal ako na hindi ko kailangang magtago or tumakas at makaramdam ng pangamba. Unlike sa naging past relationship ko, na naging matagal na lihim sa family ko at hanggang sa nagkahiwalay na kami hindi nila nalaman ng parents ko na once nagka-boyfriend na pala ako. Sobrang istrikto kasi ang Dad ko and that time, student pa lang ako, kaso naging pasaway ako, hindi ko pinalagpas ang nararamdaman ng puso ko, kaya ayun maaga kong na-experience ang great pain because of being betrayed and being broken-hearted. Hayy... Pero it's okay, naka-moved on na ako and masaya na ako sa bagong buhay ko ngayon with my "baby k0h" (I love you Joel L.)

... to be continue

"Sexy Aries"

Aries loves the hunt and will do whatever it takes to get the prize they want. The question in their mind will often be whether it's a prize worth keeping. Aries will take risks during the chase and would love the object of their affections to do the same. That give-and-take can keep things more than interesting and going for quite some time. There is no doubt that Aries is seductive and will prove hard to resist. Sparks will fly in this competitive pas de deux, and it's the entire better where the Ram is concerned. A mental attraction for impassioned Aries is often the first step and the indicator as to whether things will progress. If things work their way down -- watch out! Once hooked, Aries loves strokes and tender caresses and a lover who will tell them that they are the best.
The demanding and passionate Ram needs an equally self-possessed lover to stimulate them and set them on fire. If not, what's the point? Aries can be fiercely loyal, yet self-centered at the same time, so their partner needs to exhibit confidence and a sense of when to give them the space they need. The occasional bouts of temper exhibited by Aries are best dealt with if they are used as a prelude to a deeper understanding and the sizzle that comes with kissing and making up. Aries will stick with a relationship as long as it's hot (and fireworks are key to this Fire Sign), but if things start to cool down, it won't be long before they hit the road. The ideal Aries soul mate may be someone who is never, ever dull.

"She is easily aroused and attracted, but her flames generally tend to burn fiercely only for a short time. The Aries woman is capable of a long- term commitment but only where her partner is able to generate situations and activities that will constantly stimulate her."

"Because of You Baby I'm blessed"

More than anything in this world I want to spend the rest of my life with you. We have both been through a lot of distrust and discomfort from our past, and we have seemed to finally find that trust and comfort in each other. We are always knowing what each other is thinking whether something is wrong, or right.

I've never really been able to label of my past boyfriend as anything but my boyfriend, but you aren't just my boyfriend, you are my friend, you are everything to me! and that is what I have been missing in all of my relationships, and you are what I have been missing in my life!! Before you, I didn't think much of myself as really anyone important, but you have brought out the best in me! I may sometimes get mad when you say I have to call myself beautiful since I obviously don't believe it, but, I realize that you only want me to see what you see in me, even if I don't believe that is possible. You have seen more in me than anyone in this world - including myself.

I want to thank you for always being there for me, and doing everything you can to make my life easier. I love you so much, Baby!

"To My Baby Who Makes Me Happy"

Dear Baby K0h,

I just wanted to write you and let you know how much I do love you and how close we have became in such a short period of time. We may not have known each other long but our love is strong and it means everything to me. You are the one who always makes me feel better about myself and makes me laugh at all the crazy stuff we talk about that no one understands but us. I'm glad I found you and I hope we spend a lot more happy times together in the future. Thanks just for being here for me I love you more than words I could say.

Love,

"Honey K0h"

"Baby K0h"

Dear Joel,

I love you. I love every little thing about you. I love your cute smile, your magical eyes, and the sound of your voice. I love your gentle touch, and I love the warmth I feel when I’m by your side. I can't stop thinking about you when we are apart. I need you by my side. You complete me. You mean the world to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the one I've always wished for. I never thought that I would ever meet someone as special as you. I love each and every moment I share with you.

Love always,
RinCel

"Luckiest Girl"

It's a little after 5 am and I was just lying here thinking of you. Even though I am a girl, just a girl, I am a girl in love with the most wonderful person in the world. That would make me the luckiest girl in the world. I'm not sure exactly why I'm thinking about you so much right now or so much the last few months for that matter, but it feels good to think of you. It feels right. I don't really believe that I can live without you. You are a huge part of me. You are my heart, and I surely can't live without my heart. You are the ONLY person for me. I love you so much Baby! This was kind of cheezy I guess, but I'm sure I couldn't find a card to say it with a nice little picture on it.